Beloved Love, goodbye.

When U cant love a person that u loved is really very painful. Very, very painful. All the memories will show in ur mind unconsciously n tears starts flowing out without notice. Is this what I deserve? Maybe yes. Since its a sin for me to fall in love in this age. I hurted ppl that i loved, so this is the pain I deserve to get. I’m really sorry for everything.

I love u, n u love me. but we’re not together. bcs i’m a coward. Sorry. But I really love U. I’m sorry I changed, changed to be a selfish and coward girl. You’re right. But i try to hold U for the future. I dont wan to be ur miss-nobody thats y friends is the best way for it. Y!! Y!! cant u understand?? I just wanted to see u living perfectly fine. sorry to be this selfish. So now I got nothing n I deserve it.

People say, the only way to move forward is to stop looking back. But the brain refused to do that. the brain is the 1 that kept flashing back the empty hole in my life. yes, I hv an empty hole right in the middle of my life now.

Its painful to keep all the memories, but I want the memories be sweet, I dont want it to become anger and hate. I want it to remaind pure. Bcs thats my precious memories with you.