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It had been a while since I updated my blog.

Let me update my life 1st. =) I got a place in UM. I know Its unbelievable. But still I got it. Met numerous people, but only got a few friends XD I know… It’s pathetic v.v I told myself to get a new life here. Be a new Wan Jin. Try to get rid of all the bad habits I had last time… Well, Can I wish congratulation to myself? Can say I really do get rid of most of them. but not all I guess. I’m still bad in making decision. Or can say hate to make decision… I’m loosing determination again, I need a refill. Desperately need a refill for determination, that tank is going empty!!!! I need tans of determination of everything…. For my project, for my courses, for my exam, for my studies, for my fate and for my love.

I love the university, kinda proud of it actually… But I had a feeling that I’m nothing in this big, magnificent university. I’m nothing, I cant contribute. I know nothing and I hv nothing to be proud of myself. (ah~ another pathetic) Thats why I say determination is what I need now. At least I want to be good in something. At least I want to do something to contribute to anyone, or anything. I want the whole class to pass the exam… But I myself hate a subject.. >_< I know I should not have these kind of thinking anymore, I know it will ruin that particular subject, but I cant help it. Can I have a hypnosis to change my thought?

I’m telling myself to be positive. Positive in everything. Think everyone is good… Think everything is fine, think I can do the best and think life can be better no matter what I got.